Thursday, January 05, 2012

I can't get back the time I waste...

I don't do regret. I just made an executive decision about that particular emotion a long time ago. I do the best I can. That isn't necessarily the best I'm capable of at any given time, but I give whatever I have to whatever I do.

But whenever I find myself at a point where I'm forced to look back over a decision I've made and try to figure out how I got from there to here...

Sometimes I sneak right up to the precipice of regret. Instead I get angry and I start to wonder if, in fact, the effort I expended toward a particular unsuccessful end might have been a waste of my time.

And that makes me furious. And my head aches like it's doing right now because what am I supposed to do with anger? And what am I supposed to do with the absolutely impoverished notion- no pun intended- that instead of being productive or moving toward my intended goal, I was wasting my time?

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